I hate that song, "If I had a Million Dollars."
It's cheesy and it pisses me off every time I hear it.
I know, I know, it's a song...but really, a goat (or whatever dumb thing they say)?
I heard this song on the radio yesterday and quickly changed the channel. Unfortunately, I let it ruin my mood for a few minutes.
I know money is not important, but it's necessary. I know I have more than I need at times, but I also know that there have been times I haven't had enough. I don't need a million dollars, and I actually don't really want it. I just want enough money to do some good and feel peace.
I read all these lame articles on MSN money or whatever, giving rules and advice for governing ones' money - they piss me off too. They mention how "easy" it is to save. You just "do it." Well...they forget to mention that sometimes ones' best intentions and years of college education don't always account for all of life's surprises.
I've tried my best. We are working so hard. But, it's not enough. And, I am so tired.
I think the "bigger purpose" behind this economy for my little family has been clear. We don't need any more "things." Sure, I like nice jeans and cute shoes. I enjoy being able to support my kids with their activities...but, I don't want the fancy house and car. I just don't care about them. I really don't. I don't even think about those things anymore. I just want to be comfortable enough to go to the grocery store without worrying if my debit card is going to be denied.
Really and truly...if I had a million dollars...I wouldn't buy the house on the hill. I might upgrade the car a bit (it's nearing 90,000 miles), but nothing super fancy. I would pay off debt and go back to school. I would buy nice gifts for my family and friends on their birthdays. I would pull out my credit card and give money freely to organizations when catastrophes occur. I would donate enough money to begin a research project specifically designed to help children with Ring 18 syndrome (the first of it's kind), begin a monthly group in Davis County for parents of special needs children which would include dinner/childcare, and open up a private practice/respite for children who have parents with addiction problems.
(*Then I might go to Anthropologie and allow myself the opportunity to buy a "Full-Priced" item. Wouldn't that be a dream?)
I am not a saint, and I will never pretend to be. I know that my list, in reality, would include a few more "out to dinner" splurges, and GapKids clothes purchases than mentioned.
But, really...I don't think my dreams are bad.
Now...I just need to change my attitude so I can actually work to put those dreams into action, rather than whine and mope about life's hand that has been dealt. Heaven knows it could most definitely be worse.
6 comments:
Well, you're better than me. My attitude about money of late has been the worst! It really bothers me that a lot of people around me who don't really deserve it, never have to struggle with money. And I cannot remember a time in my adult life that I did not.
But, I will try to learn from you and have a better attitude, and know that it can be worse. It's just hard to think of how at times!
Well said - I think you have a great attitude about it - now, if we could all be that way....
I think you should go back to school if you want to. You would be a kick a#s Dr. I'm all about it. If you need a cheerleader I can be one. And the economy sucks. I love you sister.
I didn't own my own house untill I was 30, we lived in a small two bedroom apartment in San Diego when you were Abby's age. Your sisters and you and your husbands are so much better at this part of life than I ever was. See you mature and come to realizations of what is truley important and what is not impresses upon me how good a job your mom did in keeping you pointed in the right direction. Love Ya, Dad
Make a vision board. Put it where you see it every day, and you will make your dreams a reality.
Jen, I agree with your dad. You are only 31 and to have all that you have at your age is amazing! We have so many years left to make money, but i know it's hard to not dream now. I have a feeling you make all that happen!
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